This journal of poems is about me. Purely and disgustingly-truthful statements about me and what I've been through. Afraid of Being Afraid was chosen because it represents the perfect statement to describe the last few years of my life. From today, I was diagnosed with panic disorder 2 years ago. Everyday of my life, every morning, I was afraid of being afraid. I was afraid that a panic attack would occur at any point in time. I was afraid of my heartbeat rising and not being able to stop the adrenaline that occurs while being anxious. I was afraid of not being able to control my thoughts. I was afraid, of being afraid. And unfortunately, it all began from my sister passing away 3 years ago. These words in this journal are the words I felt while going through this period of my life, and by writing these poems, helped me cope. Hopefully while reading this, they help you with similar situations you're dealing with. This is about me. This is about what i ve been through.