The story of the author's struggle to live with a diagnosis of cancer. Robins writes frankly of her personal journey of learning to live with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma. She asks questions all of us might when faced with such appalling news: how should I tell by mother?; will my husband re-marry after I die?; what should I wear to chemotherapy?; what would happen if I jumped off the table during radiation treatment?; can I ever forget I have cancer?