Pain and loss are not only the products of chaos. They produce chaos. Chaos can have gentle beginnings, such as an inner tug within our souls that awakens us to the realization that the life we are leading is not fulfilling. Chaos can also begin in more dramatic ways - the death of a loved one, a divorce, the loss of a job. Whatever the impetus, chaos is uncomfortable. It moves us out of familiar patterns and known ways, and causes us to reevaluate what is important; and, if we heed the signs, its sets us on a journey of seeking more of what is missing.In this extraordinary book, James R. Newby tells us of his own spiritual journey and emitonial chaos - of the death of his father, the breakdown of his marriage, and his own bouts with debilitating depression. He shows how chaos such as this, or chaos that simply whirls around inside us, becomes sacred when it pushes us on the quest for spiritual intimacy. What that quest looks like, says Newby, very much depends on how willing we are to let go of the past behaviors that have tied us down and follow wherever the chaos of our spiritual quest leads us.