Tanya, 16, mouse-blonde, the plain one who is always paired with a more attractive friend, wants her life to explode into a dazzling new pattern. She is ready for something to happen. Then HE walks into her life...'Dear Diary - This is the first day of my new life. I suddenly feel more alive than I've ever felt. This is going to be the new beginning I've been looking for. The future is mine. I'm going to let go of my old hesitations, nervousness, shyness, whatever and throw myself into the whirlpool of life. I'm going to find myself - my true self!'...Does she succeed or is she throwing herself at the wrong boy? Does she humiliate herself or find true love? Is letting go the biggest mistake of her life or the way to her true self?