Sufferings, Deranged, Disgusted, Solitude but WHY? Every since the age we were able to comprehend, we were taught to respect our elders and be obedient to high authorities no matter the ethnicity, color, and background. As a child, sexually abuse by my father, a man not living by morals and ethics at that time, introduced to me to explicit behavior that greatly confused me and held me in bondage knocking my self-esteem very low: BUT GOD shaped and molded me into a spiritual being and revitalized my relationship with Christ. Now years later, I am able to testify.