Don't miss the new novel from the Women's Prize longlisted author of Careless

'An emotional rollercoaster' GRAZIA

'A rare new talent' THE GUARDIAN'

'So real, and so very moving' JESSICA RYN

'A second heartfelt triumph' ANSTEY HARRIS


Lucy Banbury is fine. Until she isn't...

Lucy Banbury isn't the sort of person that everyone gets along with - she's prickly and secretive, and she likes things ordered 'just so'. But things couldn't be going better for her - she swims three times a week, she's on the cusp of a huge promotion at work and she's dating someone perfect on paper.

But when she discovers at a family wedding that she's adopted, her whole world is shattered. Those cracks she's taken years to plaster over are beginning to surface and she's not sure how much longer she can keep all her secrets hidden, all whilst pretending to be someone she's not...

Because how can you pretend to love your life, when nobody loves you?

Praise for Kirsty Capes:

'Astounding. Heart-breaking but hopeful, and a fresh new voice' PANDORA SYKES

'Made me laugh and cry in equal measure' GOOD HOUSEKEEPING

'A book that deserves to be a huge hit' STYLIST

'The literary equivalent of gold dust' BENJAMIN ZEPHANIAH